Past, Present and Future
So I guess being in love is inspiring. And after all isn't that what we all search for?, that true love story. Finding the matching half in this revolving world. I may or may not have found mine. I don't know yet. Like I said, time and fate will do the trick.
When it comes to relationships, regardless of its nature, love or friendship or even hatred, it always begins in the first eye contact. That first look. A tenth of a second that has so much to tell for.
Some, those who believe in love at first sight, are eager and desperately looking for answers. Others look for that confidential information, a secret, a sign, something encrypted that could help the judgement sentence. Yes, that judgement that we all face when looking into someone's eyes for the first time. Finally, there are those who do not search for anything. Just live it as it is.
I guess what I am trying to say is that within the first look, some rush impulsively and blindly into the future to come, some try to find in the past the answers to cope with the present and some just live it.
I have experienced them all and I guess most like everybody else. As a teenager patience is not the strongest suit, so it is mostly about the rush, the need to find out fast what the answer is. Then, a couple of love stories filled up with hope, confidence, self-belief and eventually the heartache strikes and that hard face of life looks upon. Frightening. The self-preservation instincts activate and the solution is to take a step back. So before rushing ahead one tries to anticipate by trying to learn with the past. Only everybody changes and daily life constantly changes everybody. The truth of yesterday is a different kind of truth today and a lie tomorrow. And eventually it crashes and burns with that grasping for past knowledge as it was oxygen to live for.
Now I write my experience of the present.